Don't be mistaken, I have been feeling positive and productive about life in general, it's just that sometimes when things slow down and everyone takes a break for quality time that I made no effort to do myself, it gets quiet and quiet leads to contemplation. It's really no time for me to be buying a plane ticket, quite honestly, but I'd still jump online to do just that the second I knew when I could see Peter again. Video chats can only do so much for a person.
Tomorrow, I will be thankful to be around several friends who always make me laugh, in a warm, beautiful home with great food, wine and several rounds of Rock Band. I will feel happy and fulfilled, and there will also be a part of me that wants so badly to be sharing that with Peter.
Two years ago, I met up with my mom, brother and sister in law in Boulder, CO for Thanksgiving. We went hiking and saw the most amazing sky I've ever seen. It's amazing how things have changed and stayed the same since then.