I have been spending a lot of time with Lilly since Neko is no longer here to harass her. She will not enter my bedroom, which is a new thing. She slept next to me the night Neko died, but since then, will not stay on the bed when I bring her in there each night. She used to spend a fair amount of time in there, but perhaps now the room is filled with his spirit, still spending each night with me. I have not slept well since his death. I get to the point where I can't keep my eyes open on the couch, but once my head hits the pillow on my bed, I am wide awake, reliving the day of his death. I hope time will eventually allow me to fall asleep with a sense of peace first rather than loss.
Lilly is not as sleek as Neko was, but rather a raggedy, easily matted fluffball no matter how much I brush her. Her shape is also a bit mushroom-like when she sits, and so I nicknamed her "ragamushroom" (ragamuffin +mushroom) but is also known as Lilly, Lillygirl, my little muffin top, mushroom, ragamuffin, ragamushroom, etc. She, like Neko, shows her belly often, but will attack if said belly is rubbed. Neko didn't mind so much.