I can't help but feel I'm running out of time to choose another career destination as I've entered my thirties. I'm good at my job, at times I even love it, but I don't want to do it forever. I love a lot of things about it, so I refuse to get what many have referred to as a "real job" if I have no passion for one. My job is just as real as anyone else's and I can back that statement with a stack of applications filled out by people already in possession of those "real jobs". Still, it's not what I want to be doing when I'm 50. I try to be patient with myself and not put undue pressure on myself just because I've officially lost my youth. I started bartending as a way to put myself through college and have worked several second jobs/internships since obtaining my B.A., but none have captivated me for longer than a year until I discovered soap. When I graduated I took a trip to Alaska, bought some handmade soap as gifts, kept most of it for myself, long story short... I have been making soap suds when I'm not pouring suds for the last several years and with every batch I make, I become more involved and passionate about it. Etsy (and all things handmade) is my latest obsession... I encourage you to take a look beyond my store and explore their unique, trendsetting site. It's truly amazing and I believe in putting my money in the pockets of individual creators rather than into the overstuffed pockets of big companies where mere pennies trickle down into the pocket of an 8 year old in Taiwan who worked all day so that I could have my purse for cheap.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Definition by default.
I am constantly trying to define myself. Whether for myself or for others, I'm unsure. How do I know anyone else really wants to know anyway? I suppose by making an attempt in a public medium, I'll soon find out. Where do I start, with how I earn a living? ..that seems to be the starting point for most people. I suppose it defines me, not so much that I fit the image of what people think of when they think of a bartender, but that it provides me the time and money to incorporate the things that I value into my life. I can run or ride my bike almost any day of the week whether I have to work or not. I don't sit in rush hour traffic unless I get a late start running errands. I work about half the hours of an average American work week and earn a suitable living for a single person. I don't stand in line at the grocery store. Sometimes I achieve an aerobic state while I'm working. I can take more than two weeks vacation in a year. I can joke around and have fun at my job and earn more money by doing so. At the same time, I defy you to pigeonhole me into the bartender stereotype. I don't steal, I have never done cocaine, I am not interested in ripping people off. I am honest and am not interested in money I didn't earn (not that I'd turn down a winning lottery ticket). I don't do shots of Jagermeister or Grand Marnier. I don't smoke. I do, however, drunk-text/email after too much wine. What can I say, it makes me loopy.